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Hey everyone.. how's life? I'm back. Finally I fixed my laptop & here we go... woohooo~
I almost forgot that I have a blog, i was checking my notes on my phone then I saw the file name 'BLOG' so I opened it and realized that I have blogger account.. hehee~
It's been a long time since I post on my profile.
&& I have nothing to say except ..
" I LOVE TOP TO THE MAX ! " ^^
I rarely online my msn & facebook too, now I love to online my twitter. Twitter is like my only bestfriend ^^~ I put all my daily thoughts on it. I will tweet every single minute, non-stop (:
But my twitter has a lots of friends already, so I can't put any vulgar or any secret things too much there.. so I will try my best to update my blogger cos I have no friends here.
I will learn to treat my blogger as my bestfriend&diary too ^^

I'm loving YGFamily more&more. It contains BIGBANG , 2NE1 , SE7EN , TEDDY , KUSH , GUMMY .. I love all of them equally but I love TOP,SE7EN,CL&MINZY the best! I adore the rest so muchy.. oh yeah~ i'm so excited cos on 15th July ( which is nexr month) I will attend the KMW (Korean Music Wave) for the 1st time.
BIGBANG&2NE1 is coming so I need to attend it, its a must ! & the other 8 groups.
But not so long ago Daesung oppa from BIGBANG had a problem. I knew it from twitter, precisely from the allkpop ( the accnt for kpop ). It was around 2AM and i still awoke and I was so shocked & I couldn't sleep at all until 4AM and I'm having class at 8AM.
I was totally in nervous, I couldn't do anything except keep alert&read the further news about him.
Luckily he can go back to his dorm. Unfortunately, he can't go to KMW on 15th July! I'm sad. BIGBANG can't have their group performances :(((
I totally sad cos I love their group performances, their song.. LOVE SONG,TONIGHT,STUPID LIAR,CAFE. Maybe it's the best for Daesung not to come. At least they will still come. GD&TOP will perform duet and for Taeyang&Seungri they will perform solo. It's my 1st time go to their concert but its so sad cos they are not going to the stage as 5 , as BIGBANG. T~T
Anyway what can I do? I cant do anything , so just let it be.
I bought the very front pit. Hoping that my honeybunnysweety TOP see me. ^oo^~

Woaahh~ I will get crazy on that day man! I mean what you gonna do if you see your idol with you own eyes??? You will do the same as me yeah~
I will keep SHOUTING && CALLING HIS NAME NON-STOP MAN! hope he gives his hands to the fans in front and by that opportunity I can touch his hand ! xD
aw aww awwww~ I'm so excited!!
bcos of this GORGEOUS coming event.. I had a BEAUTIFUL DREAM. it happens for the 1st time in my live! :D

you know what i was dream?
I dream about my honeybunnysweety TOP.You know this is my first time going crazy over a singer ^^~
So it was about their upcoming concert on 15th july. In my dream i was fall asleep on the concert but I woke up when its my TOP turns to sing & I was shouting like a crazy girl & I came up to the stage& hug him so tightly. I asked him if I can take a pictures with him or not & he allowed it, I even still remember the pose that I took with him. We took a lot of pictures.
I hardly take in and out my breath, I was so happy,extremely HAPPY!!
And after we took pictures he asked me what song I want him to sing? woahh~ this is the best part in my life if he really sing that song for me. Then I asked him to sing 1 of his song ; BABY GOODNIGHT. I really love this song from the first I heard this song & he sang that song so proudly & clearly. awww ~ so sweet. I'm loving it.
After he sang that song for me then the scenery changed to a rainy day. He shared an umbrella with me, we walked together. woohooo~
Anyway the point of my dream is that I have a date with my honeybunnysweety TOP xD
It was the BEST DREAM I've experienced in my life !!! How I wish it will come true??

Guess I need to make it short now~ " I LOVE YG FAMILY ; BIGBANG-TOP ; SE7EN ; 2NE1- CL&MINZY FOREVER&EVERRR!!! "

Hi.. im back,

sorry for not updating my blog, I kind of lazy to update it.

My laptop also breaks downm half of my screen breaks, so I can only see the upper side.

OMG! its troublesome.

Anyway im gonna summarize all my story . Im doing fine, having my 'N' lvl this year (hope i'll go up to sec5 :D ), im having a LOVE problem && ILOVEBIGBANG more&more as time passing by my LOVE to T.O.P oppa is INCREASING !

GAMSAHAMNIDA for your kind attention to read my non-sense blog, bcos I really have no feeling to update it, I just passing by my blog. HEHEHE :p :p

ILOVETHEM TO THE MAXXXX :D

simplified those pictures to 1.

HAHAHAHAHA.. my new style
just bought the hat that i think same as JunSu & jacket tht looks like T.O.P :D

I try to edit&combine their pictures,
&the result is like this. hahas
&I combined my pictures with them (:
I know it still messy but I'll try to make it nice someday!

just dont know how to express my feeling towards them. Just ♥ them ToTheMaxxx !

Now I realise tht I ♥ 2PM too ..especially NichKhun&Taecyeon&Jaebum&WooYoung
hahas.
but still I ♥BigBang too :)
just fall in love with Kpop, i 'll start my day with listening to BigBang&2PM's songs. there is no way frm me to forget about listening to their song.
I will end&start my day by listening to it .
I know its over HYPER but its my life, I love wht I love & I hate what I hate !

♥BigBang:

• T.O.P
• G-Dragon
• TaeYang
• SeungRi
• DaeSung

♥2PM :

• JaeBum
• NichKhun
• Taecyeon
• WooYoung
• JunSu
• JunHo
• ChanSung

downloading all the new K-pop songs (:

okayy im back ppl :D nothing much to talk about, hehe.. just still confuse how to use this program ~.~ &&yeahh ! end of year exams is coming sooon ! but i havent revise anything yet..
Aaarrrghhhh -___-"
haha.. dont care uh. but IJUSTLOVETHEWAYTHEYARE now&then, LOVELOVELOVELOVE BIGBANG TO THE CORE !!



*sorry im a bit crazyyy about them. but this is me,i just deeply in love with them :)

He is just too damn HOT for me..
this video will completely making me smile foolishly no matter what,,
ILOVEYOU so muchh muchh ... ♥

1000stars memory

ooh yah &about the 1000stars ?
i just keep those with me.
dont wanna give him, let it just be mine

I still love him but I've no choice but to forget everything about him.
its kinda hard for me but i try my best to do it..

(:

Yooooo !

hey hey hey Everyone..
its been 3months i haven't update my blog
well,u know i have a lot of story to tell & many incident happened.
but..
im too lazy to type it ..

Now im too crazy over BIGBANG ---> korean Group
they are so damn hot. especially T.O.P
& they are coming to spore on 23 october, should i watch the concert?
now im confused -___________-"

I just love him so much, i get so blushy whenever i see his picture or listenin to his song..
until most of my friends said tht im insane just bcos of "that singer"
this is my 1st time i over reacted like tht.. OMG !
i bought a lot of their stuff, everything just about them (:
I just lovelovelovelovelovelove them toooo much ....

♥빅뱅 especially 최.승.현 !

awww..
after waiting for his reply
finally he replied me !
after 2weeks you know ?
haha
just now was raining, he said that he had nothing to do..
I asked him how was the maths paper ?
he said very difficult then he asked about me?
then i said u r clever than me but u cant do it then how about me ?
the answer is so obvious.
aftr that he start to tell me a story
he said that he never reads the instructions, we are supposed to answer 2 questions out of 3,
but he did all the questions&when he wanted to finish the last question ,
the times up
hahahhahaha ..
too bad right ?
then after like 15 or 20 mins I sms-ing with him,
suddenly he said that he must go for tuition bcos the tuitor come alrdy !

ooohhell !
why the teacher came on the wrong time when im having my time him ?
shittt ~
@first i was like no hope on him alrdy, like want to give up bcos he never talked or replied my message but he did reply now !
Im really feeling like in the heaven when he replied it !! [:
&he promised will text me when he finish tuition !
"My Love for him becoming so big&big ! ILoveYou boy more than anywords could express it !"

*happyhappyhappyhappyhappy

hey my diary sorry nvr write for a long2 time :D
im kinda busyy bcos of the exams !

on last sunday 09 may 2010

my parents called me @9 pm,
its the 1st time my daddy called my used my mom's phone. He support me on my exams& said I must sleep early&drink alots of water.
if I feel like sleepy just sleep, just revise everything in the morning..
(aaww, he is so damn freaking understanding to me.. IalwayssLOve u dad.no matter how fierce u are but i know u do it for my own good ^^)

Then my mom talked with me.. she said
"You must jiayou ! do ur best ! dont foget to pray everynight ! Jesus always do what is right for tou if you really believe in Him!"(she is so damn religious)
Then she said : "Mei on the day u come back home ask daddy to fetch u @ the airport ok?&take the money frm him for ur bday party, mommy want to go china,im so sorry honey this year I cant celebrate ur bday with you.But still mommy loves you ! Wish u all the best for the exams okay?"

I only can said "yess" to my mom. but do you know how much i want her to be beside me when my bday ?
i never see her in the past 3months some more ! I dont want the money !
i want herr ! but i looking at the positive side, there is still my daddy,my cousins,friends&my bestfriends.
but there will no MOM&MY BROTHER ! so sad right ?

damndamndamndamn !

=="

hey hey my dear diary,, :)
Today is really nothing special. whenever I want to see him,he never show but..
when I dont want to see him, he'll alwayss right in front my eyes !
Its really irritating, Now im not really hope too much frm him, bcos now we're lose contact alrdy..

Its begin from : Last Monday 26/04/2010

It was the english paper exam aftr it finished we allowed to go home, but unfortunately it was raining when we were going out frm the gate.
Then I saw him in frnt of the general office, I guessed he was waiting for the raining to stop.
then I dont know wht to say&what to do on that time, so I just opened up my umbrella in frnt of him,and not asked him whether he wants it or not but I just used it with my friend..
& left him alone there, I also never say "HI" or wht to him.
&I knw its my fault,aftr tht I felt guilty & messaged him. I said "How's ur paper ? difficult ? anyway sorry never asked you for the umbrella.

&& he never reply me since that day until NOW ! usually he always replied me immidiately, though he just give me 1 or 2 sentences, but @ least he did reply ..
I miss that time, now he really change..
Never reply my message&act like he doesnt want to know me anymore.
I feel like he keep the distance away frm me everyday..

I'm reallysadsadsadsad :(
Why he changed? is it bcos he knows alrdy that ILIKEHIM or wht ?
but why he must do this ? why cant just tell me or @ least reply my messages ?
DOYOUKNOWHOWMUCHITHURTSME ? but whatever itis ISTILLDOLOVEYOU !

So,dont worry boy! My heart still belongs to you forever !!
(:

Hot weather ---> Bad mood

Today is really damn irritating I got stayback and yet my mom scloded me bcos i didnt pick up her phone
I didnt pick up bcos i still @ the class room&cant pick it up. &after that she told me to take money from my guardian,but I have tuition& im so damn fucking tired. If the money for me , I'll definately take it, but the money is for my bro then why cant she ask my bro to take it by himself ? She is so damn unfair ! though im younger than him , thats not mean that im his helper right ? *fvck !
I really hate todayyyy a lottsss ! *My leg painn some more ! :(

whywhywhy ?

Well,
@first i was trying to forget him.
& I can did it ! :D
I have a crushed on him about only about 10 months,
last time I was stay in the same dorm as him, it was a good&bad time for me.
The good things bcos i could see him every step he makes&everything he did
but...
The bad thing is that thought i was in the same house as him,
I couldnt have spent a bit time to talk to him.
All I could do is just say " HI !"

Every night I tried to find a reason,
why I can have a crushed with a person that I can never ever be able to talk with ?
Isn't it funny ?
Then after having an idiot time to get rid of him,showing him how much I want him&wasting my precious tears only for him,
Finally I can be able to get over him !
&I moved house,try to forget all things about him. erase his number.
&never think anything about him @all.
I can did it ! its successful, but why when I saw his photo with other girls I always get jeaolus ? Does it means that I still cant forget him ?
But I dont have any feeling for him ANYMORE & I NEVERHAVEANYFEELING to see him not even once !

whywhywhy?
Now I saw his photo again with all the housemates I used to hang out with,
His face havent change s bit, its more handsome day by day !
Well,I just checked the photos one more time&I saw him taking pictures with my enemy.
Can u imagine that ? good,my heart breaking now.and my tears coming but I hold it.
why must I cry for him?
He's not worthy !
Bullshit !

Fine, from now on Im gonna really make him OUTOFMYLIFE !
not a tiny piece of him can stay on me!

God pls help me&give me more strength to do it :D

What I've been thinking about from the 1st time until now ?
its been 4months im wondering if he wants me or not,
but i never get the clues.
&only left 3months to his birthday..
Should I give him the STARS,
or just keep those lovely STARS for myself without to let him knows .
anything about my TRUEFEELINGTOHIM !

Yesterday I was angry with the rain bcos it made me wet. But now I'm in love with the rain bcos it can hide my tears while I cry so that no one knows that I'm crying ! Lovelovelove rain ! (: ♥